Day 33

172.4 at the doctor's office.  I am completely baffled as to how I have gained weight.  I've gone off plan a few times but not enough to gain.  I should have at least maintained.  So it's back to counting calories.

My daughter's boyfriend is still here.  We watched The Mist and Maximum Overdrive today.  I'm not a fan of Stephen King, though.

I finished the possum and the frog.  I'm now working on the alpaca and still waiting for my fabric to come in.  They said it would ship by today, but it hasn't shipped yet.  I'll have to email them and ask when it will ship.

I'm feeling a little better, but still a lot of anxiety going on.  I just got my medication refilled about an hour and a half ago so I'm waiting to see if that helps.

That's all for today...

Forget Everything That's Happened Until Now

Well, I got another scale and it says 169.8 so apparently I've gained weight since I went to the doctor last.  I go again on the 18th so I'll get my weight there, too, but now I've got more than 30 pounds to lose.  I'm going to cry now.  I don't know whether to start over at Day 1 or keep going.  I'm extremely discouraged right now.  Maybe I'll start over when I get my weight at the doctor's office.

I wanted to go walking today, but it's raining.  The weather is reflecting my mood.

Update:  After giving it some thought, I've decided I'm going to start all over.  I'm going to call in the morning and see if I can get in to see the doctor earlier and go from there.