Day 26

I finished Unicorns of Vengeance last night.  I wish I had my materials to start Titania but it will be a while before those come in.  I'm considering going ahead and ordering the materials for Adia.  I ordered the fabric from Silkweaver.  They make gorgeous fabrics.  I went ahead and got the fabrics for Titania, Adia, and Petal Fairy.  Another one I want to do is Woodland Fairie, but I haven't picked out what fabric I want for her yet.  I told my daughter that I'm making these for my granddaughter.  Now, my daughter isn't married.  She's not even engaged.  But one day she'll be married and have a little girl and these are for her.  Seriously.

I got a lot done cleaning out that room, but I didn't finish yesterday.  I'm planning on finishing today.

I ate about 1400 calories yesterday.  I keep hoping that I'll get used to not eating so much and stop being hungry as often so I can make it down to 1200 a day.

Currently the reality show is Bridezilla.  My daughter just loves bad reality TV.

I'm waiting for the medicine to kick in and then I've got to get started on cleaning.  I've really got to get that room finished today...

Day 23

I ate about 1300 calories yesterday.  We got a lot of stuff cleaned out, but still have more work to do.  I also started Unicorns of Vengeance.  My new magnifier lamp works great!  I'm so glad I got it!

I went to the doctor and got the shots for my back again today.  I'll be trying to lift boxes this weekend cleaning those rooms out.  I did not get weighed at the doctor's office today.  My back does feel better, but it is starting to give me a headache again.

I haven't seen my stray cat today.  I'm a bit concerned.  I hope he shows up tonight.  Some guys were out here working for a while today so that may have scared the cat off.

I'm still feeding the raccoons and opossums every night.  It's so cute.  The raccoons will come up to me for the vanilla creme cookies.  I just love raccoons.  I want to hug one.

My daughter and mother ordered pizza for tonight's supper, but I didn't have any.  I really need to stick to the plan and get this weight off.  It just seems like it doesn't want to budge.  We haven't gotten to get into walking yet.  It rained every day for a while and now we're busy cleaning out those rooms.  My daughter's boyfriend is coming for a visit next weekend.  Hopefully after that we'll be able to start walking.  Unfortunately, it's started getting really hot now.  The "feels like" temperature today was 103 degrees.

So far, my summer has been pretty boring.  I haven't had much to write about.  But I will continue to post my calorie intake.

Oh, and we're currently watching Marriage Boot Camp...

Day 21

Three weeks and I've been off plan two days.  I've gotten to the point that I'm always trying to think of excuses to binge.  I haven't been hungry.  I just want to eat.

I ate about 1350 calories yesterday.

We're going to the city today.  I had wanted to go eat Mexican and get margaritas, but I've kind of lost interest.

Earlier at the doctor's, I weighed 170 pounds.  The shot I got for my back made me so woozy that I wasn't bothered about it for a while.  Now I'm disappointed.

Those shots were awesome, though.  They wore off last night, but while they lasted my back hasn't felt that good in a loooong time.  I may have to go back to get some more so I can finish our spring cleaning.

We haven't been walking because it's been raining Every. Day.

Both parts of the two-part episode of Married At First Sight aired last night so I don't have to worry about that anymore.  Hallelujah!

Two of my raccoons are bringing babies up now.  They're so adorable!  I just want to hug them.  It's so cute how they stay right beside Mama.

Well, I've got to go get ready to go...

Day 20

I ate around 1100 calories yesterday and got on the scale this morning and it said 165.4.  At this point, your guess is as good as mine as to how much I weigh.

A long time ago when I was being treated for eating disorder/depression, I had to get rid of scales because I was obsessed with them.  I would weigh all day long.  I'm doing it again, but for a different reason.  I just want to get an accurate weight.  Then I only want to weigh once a week or less.  Prior to this, the only time I weighed was when I was forced to at the doctor's office.

I had a bout with depression yesterday.  I cried and it was difficult to get anything done.  I felt a bit better by evening.  I didn't get much done yesterday.  I'm feeling a bit better this morning.

I started the Majestic Unicorns yesterday evening and very quickly ordered a magnifier with a stand and a lamp.  I'm going to be so disappointed if I can't cross stitch anymore because of my eyes.  I went to one eye doctor and he told me to just keep using reading glasses.  I'm not happy with that.  I think I'll go to another.  That clinic is about 30 minutes away, but I'll make the drive to get some glasses that correct my vision.

I'm trying to decide on my next project.  I had thought I wanted to do The Guardian, but now I'm thinking Adia, The Garden Fairy.  That's a HUGE investment though.   I may start on The Guardian since I already have all the materials for that one.

My feral/stray cat has been coming back more often.  I haven't named it yet.  I think it's a boy but I'm not positive.  I don't think it's decided to make this its home yet.

We're going back to the city tomorrow.  We may eat Mexican and get margaritas.  I'm not sure yet.  Margaritas have an unholy amount of calories.

My doctor's appointment is later today so I will update when I get my weight from them.

Oh, by the way, I thought I was done watching Married At First Sight, but noooooooooo.  They now have a two-part reunion episode so we'll be watching for the next two weeks.  Stupid, stupid reality TV.

Update:  I weighed 170.0 at the doctor's office, so I guess that's official.  How disappointing.

Whatever shots they gave me for my back made me woozy...

Ten for Tuesday

inspired by rukristin

1.  I left my purse at Walmart today and didn't realize it until after we had ordered at Sonic which caused a big panic attack.  We did get the purse back, but now I'm feeling weak.  It's amazing how those panic attacks zap the energy right out of you.
2.  Today has been a test of my discipline.  I was so hungry this morning, plus the panic attack.  I didn't think I was going to make it, but so far I've done well.  I'm ok right now.  I really didn't think I was going to make it this morning, though.
3.  I have to drive into the city Thursday to take my daughter to meet up with her boyfriend to go to a convention which will cause another panic attack.  I hate driving in the city.
4.  We have a feral cat that's been hanging out in the woods behind the house for months.  It finally came up to the house a couple of weeks ago and today it came under the carport to eat!  (I already have seven cats.)
5.  I ordered the supplies for my cross stitch projects.  Hopefully they'll be here soon.  I realized, though, that my eyes have gotten so bad that I'm going to need a magnifying glass to do the detailed stitching on The Guardian, sooooo since I didn't get anything for Mother's Day, I've decided to order a magnifying glass lamp thing with a floor stand for myself.  Happy Mother's Day to me!
6.  I have three raccoons now that will take cookies out of my hand.  Raccoons are AWESOME!  I feed them dog food every night, but I give them vanilla creme cookies for treats.  Raccoons and opossums LOVE those! (Never feed animals chocolate.  It's poison to them.)
7.  I've had a lot of traffic on this blog the last few days and I'm all excited about it!  Thanks everyone! ♥
8.  We're watching Catfish.  More... reality TV.  And then Married at First Sight.  We get to see who stayed together tonight.  Thank goodness I don't have to worry about that one anymore.
9.  I didn't think it would be this tough to think of ten things.
10.  I am done for now.

Update:  Apparently Married at First Sight ends next week.  Crap.

Five for Friday

Inspired by rukristin.

1.  I'm doing better today!  I haven't been hungry and I've had much less anxiety than yesterday.
2.  We've been watching Say Yes to the Dress today.  It's not bad reality TV, but after a whole afternoon of it, I might be willing to watch something else.  You wouldn't have to twist my arm too badly.
3.  I'm thinking about starting a cross-stitch project.  It's been so long since I've done anything with my needlework.
4.  It hasn't rained all day today!
5.  I got some more of the room cleaned out today.  I got several boxes moved out and in the trash.

Update:  It's raining.

Ten for Tuesday

Inspired by rukristin.

1.  Just watched a marathon of Married at First Sight (my daughter likes bad reality TV) and the final episode doesn't air until next week.  Aaaargh!  It's not that great of a TV show and I don't want to worry about watching it later, but I want to know who stays together!
2.  I have to take my cat to the vet tomorrow.
3.  I'm feeding raccoons outside.  I put out dog food for them (and the opossums) every night.  They really like vanilla creme cookies.  I've got a couple that will take the cookies out of my hand.
4.  I need to lose weight, but today was 50 cent corn dog day at Sonic, so we had corn dogs for dinner.

5.  Speaking of bad reality TV, now we're watching Arranged.  If these marriage reality shows aren't infuriating, they're depressing.
6.  I have to go to Walmart tomorrow, too.  I'd rather chew nails than go to Walmart.
7.  UnREAL premiers Monday on Lifetime.  I think I may watch it.  I have a problem with shows that have no good guy to root for, though.  I wonder of there will be a good guy on that show.
8.  I'm sleepy.  I didn't sleep last night because of storms moving through the area.  I need to go to bed soon and I'm wondering what my next two things will be.
9.  I need to plan how I'm going to spend this summer.  I haven't given it much thought as we just got out of school last Friday.
10.  I'm on my way to bed!