Saturday, June 27, 2015

Day 31

I'm not sure what happened, but yesterday I spiraled into an abyss of depression.  I've lost interest in stuff.  I'm just not feeling well today.  I'm hoping it will pass soon.  Several things went wrong and I lost it.  My nerves have gotten to the point that I can't take stress that well.  I've had to take extra anxiety medication.

I went off plan yesterday, too.  I've been such a mess for the past couple of days.

I'm supposed to get my materials for Titania today which is good.  I'm just waiting on the fabric now.  I'm just not sure I can do it on the 32 count fabric.  I'm really nervous about that and discouraged.  I found two other things I can work on until the fabric comes in - an alpaca and a frog.  I just keep trying to find little things to work on so I don't get caught up in something big before I start Titania.  I don't know.  I'm beginning to think I don't deserve to do these things.  I'm in a bad place right now.  I hope it passes soon.

We're probably going the Chinese restaurant to eat at some point while my daughter's boyfriend is here so I might as well forget my diet until he's gone.  I doubt I lose anything this month.

I need help today.  I can't exactly pinpoint what's wrong although I have some ideas.  I apologize for the depressing post today.  Hopefully things will get better.


  1. I am sorry that you are suffering. You're brave though to admit it. I have gotten to that place before and it is horrible.

    In moments like that you shouldn't worry about your diet. Going to a nice restaurant with family might help to pick you up and you can resume your diet when you are feeling better emotionally.

    32 count is not much different than 28 count and if need be get a magnifier. I am looking forward to seeing your progress.

  2. Thank you! I am feeling better today. :)