Day 31

I'm not sure what happened, but yesterday I spiraled into an abyss of depression.  I've lost interest in stuff.  I'm just not feeling well today.  I'm hoping it will pass soon.  Several things went wrong and I lost it.  My nerves have gotten to the point that I can't take stress that well.  I've had to take extra anxiety medication.

I went off plan yesterday, too.  I've been such a mess for the past couple of days.

I'm supposed to get my materials for Titania today which is good.  I'm just waiting on the fabric now.  I'm just not sure I can do it on the 32 count fabric.  I'm really nervous about that and discouraged.  I found two other things I can work on until the fabric comes in - an alpaca and a frog.  I just keep trying to find little things to work on so I don't get caught up in something big before I start Titania.  I don't know.  I'm beginning to think I don't deserve to do these things.  I'm in a bad place right now.  I hope it passes soon.

We're probably going the Chinese restaurant to eat at some point while my daughter's boyfriend is here so I might as well forget my diet until he's gone.  I doubt I lose anything this month.

I need help today.  I can't exactly pinpoint what's wrong although I have some ideas.  I apologize for the depressing post today.  Hopefully things will get better.